Keep remembering fragments of you,the jokes you've made,the way you cheered me up,the smiles you gave.You tried your bestand I pushed,to the limit where you were,caught between given upand seeing how much more can you take,my thoughts are,that it wasn't the right time for us.I still was caught up in my own things,didn't learned yet how to give them up,and you were full of life,of joyful thoughts,I couldn't sync myself to stop,to absolve everything ,to enjoy and live the momentwith you,with us.Never known what to say,I always wrote  down an a sheet of paper,as white as it was,my every dark or coloured thought.Something is wrong with me,I am dark,nothing personal ,just can't control myself.I am lost,caught in a tangled web,a maze a labyrinth of thoughts,my deepness cries,for the what if'sand what not's.