So this blog is also about my mental health. I've been struggling with it since a traumatizing breakdown about 7 yrs ago. I have cptsd, bpd, chronic depression and anxiety. But I'm fairly level, thanks to the different Med I started along with my others. And of course, the one that finally works is the one that made me gain this massive weight! But I prefer to be level than in an ultimate heartbreaking depression and suicidal tendencies. I almost died 2.5yrs ago from a suicide attempt. And I refuse to ever get that way again. So stay on meds and just work my ass off at the gym to lose this insaaaaane weight! So.. this is rather embarrassing and I've quite a complex about it as I'm normally very thin and have a super tiny frame.
But today I will post my before pictures.. and my weight, bmi and weight loss from my fitness app.
As today is Friday, the weekend is here.. and that's my worst time really, I've no social life at all and one friend here. This is apart of my journey, to get a social life going, get working etc. I'm very lonely and I crave human interaction. So today I'm ok... but if course a bit of a pity party mentally about my loneliness.
Anyhow.. here the pictures are, rather embarrassing! But when I'm back to my normal thin self, I'll be very proud!! The first picture is me, as i normally am! And will get back to! ALL OR NOTHING! ?
