J.D.Szilard "Demi"

Continuation prequel

Alta

One day in another life,we collide,shatter in pieces,rebuild as a whole,once more I can have you,look into your eyes,when they are smiling back at mewith joy with love.Embrace you in an eternal hug,never let you go,my love.I wonder if out soulslive eternal ?Reborn again,different time,different set.I wonder if I met youin another life,long time ago?What we were,because I felt so connected to youin this one,and I wonder if I see you againin a different time ,different set.Felt close to you,so goodlike a met you before,I need answers, need more.You told me onceyou felt the same,so what is the lesson,should we learn and gain ?And if we learn that lessonwe still be together ?Or things change.Either way you marked my heart,engraved my soul.

Still here

Smile

Father

Caterie

Keep remembering fragments of you,the jokes you've made,the way you cheered me up,the smiles you gave.You tried your bestand I pushed,to the limit where you were,caught between given upand seeing how much more can you take,my thoughts are,that it wasn't the right time for us.I still was caught up in my own things,didn't learned yet how to give them up,and you were full of life,of joyful thoughts,I couldn't sync myself to stop,to absolve everything ,to enjoy and live the momentwith you,with us.Never known what to say,I always wrote down an a sheet of paper,as white as it was,my every dark or coloured thought.Something is wrong with me,I am dark,nothing personal ,just can't control myself.I am lost,caught in a tangled web,a maze a labyrinth of thoughts,my deepness cries,for the what if'sand what not's.

Alta

One day in another life,we collide,shatter in pieces,rebuild as a whole,once more I can have you,look into your eyes,when they are smiling back at mewith joy with love.Embrace you in an eternal hug,never let you go,my love.I wonder if out soulslive eternal ?Reborn again,different time,different set.I wonder if I met youin another life,long time ago?What we were,because I felt so connected to youin this one,and I wonder if I see you againin a different time ,different set.Felt close to you,so goodlike a met you before,I need answers, need more.You told me onceyou felt the same,so what is the lesson,should we learn and gain ?And if we learn that lessonwe still be together ?Or things change.Either way you marked my heart,engraved my soul.

EXpect

Maybe I expected a couple of weeks more,now at the ending a whisper or a kind word,a gesture a farewell. The world is big,maybe we collide, maybe in this vast land,our eyes catch up again, in a crowd ,in a distant land. Foreign to us,but we feel familiar again enjoy a coffee with a select words spoken, but our hearts restlessly awoken , and once more they beat a rhythm , long time ago thought forgiven. Always thought, that the world is big enough, to cover our tracks, to hide ourselves .

Never again

I miss herbecause I let her in the home of my soulgave her the key and free will.Sometimes I miss her laughteras it echoes inside my mind,my head.Sometimes I miss her smileas it flashes in my eyes.Sometimes I miss her kissesthe warm embrace of her lips.Sometimes I wish I could have done,more for me,for her ,for us.Probably I will remember herto the day I am gone,never going to see her,never is going to be what it was.

Reborn

I depart from my past love,still wounded still hurt.I move forward unto dawndon't know the path .I realize I been negative all my life,always unhappy ,always miserable .I need to search deep within heal myself ,more then skin deep .Need my mind at ease. Happy thoughts to conjure .Positive vibes in my soul,change my madness .Reborn.

Sweet pain

I followed my heartblindfolded with lust ,Even the pastthe small imperfections ,I loved you beyond .I loved you likethere was nothing for me out there .Loved you on the edge of my sanity ,lost you in me incomprehensibility.And when I didI lost myself ,Shattered in piecesfar beyond my grasp.No horizon in frontI stood there and watched ,a broken self ,building against...A beacon of hope ,a creator of strength.

Caterie

Keep remembering fragments of you,the jokes you've made,the way you cheered me up,the smiles you gave.You tried your bestand I pushed,to the limit where you were,caught between given upand seeing how much more can you take,my thoughts are,that it wasn't the right time for us.I still was caught up in my own things,didn't learned yet how to give them up,and you were full of life,of joyful thoughts,I couldn't sync myself to stop,to absolve everything ,to enjoy and live the momentwith you,with us.Never known what to say,I always wrote down an a sheet of paper,as white as it was,my every dark or coloured thought.Something is wrong with me,I am dark,nothing personal ,just can't control myself.I am lost,caught in a tangled web,a maze a labyrinth of thoughts,my deepness cries,for the what if'sand what not's.